Owww! ): I hit my head on the wooden chair while I was getting up from the ground.I cried because it was so pain.Now,it's bruised....Luckily my frinch is covering it.Kor Kor Lionel asked if I wanted him to rub the bruise.My Retarded Smiley Convo with Lionel :p I forgot what I wrote and I deleted them too.

Lionel:1)How was ur sch 2day? C:
2)Ooh.Euu ok?Sat free? :3
3)Aww.... ):
4)Wts miumiu? :o
5)Owie._.Nid korkor rub ur head? (: Get well soon.
6)Where u live? :o
7)Icic. I tot of helping u wif ur studies after sch :3 see I nt gangster I nerd :D
8)Ohya if anybody bully u. Tell me (:
9)Just saying if u kena Bully tell me
10)Meimei wed going rite?
11)PLay bb? :o go out wif kor,xuan and jo la.We go buy ur clothes. (:
12)Aww...Which kor more important?Me or him? :p
13)Lol.Just go wif us uh. ):
14)Argh!Nvm then.Go play bb wif ur tat kor bah.I go wif xuan n jo lo. -.-
15)Meimei dont emo uh.I will more emo de.Jus tell him other day uh.Unless he tat important then u dun cancel lo
16)Duh.Jo n Xuan going
17)Tmr tell u mei (: I organizing wif wei xuan
18)Aww...Man...Tis is troublesome ):

Ugh....Wei Xuan just crashed my plans.Ask me to cancel my BB match with Jethro just because she want to go out with Lionel and Jolene.I promised Jethro last Monday morning and I told Wei Xuan before hand but she anyhow choose the date that crashes my plans and shes asking me to cancel the match.WTS,not for her to decide right.Still ask.I don't want to be mean but I really stuck in between and Wei Xuan can't even answer Yiying.Yiying asked why I say that we are going ish-skating when Wei Xuan say go t to Bugis.Like seriously,I went to Bugis for at least 5 times for the past two months.

Mui Hwee says that I am always so close to Mandy(A).She can talk to me about (A) in front of me and thats what she calls Mandy."You always come to schoool looking so emo.I try to cheer you up but it's like you show no reaction at all.No matter waht,I always come to school with a smile on my face."

When I heard that,I was so pissed like how I am now.Mandy didn't evn do anything wrong ,okay.We just share the same interests and she understands me more.Like I said,I don't like people knowing so much about me.I know maybe I'm a bit on the dark side and harsh at times but i'm always like that in TNS.I can't stand this.Now,I kinda regretted talking to people in this year though I knew Lionel last year.But,can;t he give me some space?See his convo,overprotective.

Not blogging about Super Junior.I just know it was great,awesomeee and fun.I kept jumping and screaming at the end of each song and etc.Esp,DongHae!Love him!


Today's CCA Open House was successful!About 8 people registered and I sang;with my file.DOT!GOOD JOB!

Kor Kor Lionel asked me to go ice-skating with him.Yay!But I won't go if Wei Xuan and Jolene doesn't go.Can't believe he asked me to go.Hardly know each other.Wonder if Klinsmann wants to tag along....

I hope she doesn't see this.Wei Xuan changed.When we graduated and she left,she changed her character and I get so frustrated when I talk to her because she keeps giving me that bad attitude that sucks.She hates Jannelle but the way she talk about her makes me hate her more.Jannelle is nice luh.She just copies people but I don't really care.I can tell she looked sad when she didn't receive her share of pictures.And you know what the answer was when I asked Wei Xuan why she didn't receive?Because shes not supposed to.If not,then why she take with us right?Everyone knows it's not real.Change so much.

Kor Kor Lionel told me to talk to me about 'it' but i'm perfectly fine....He tries to keep the bad stuff away like Klinsmann.But they can't keep them away forever,right...Lionel think Mummie loves me so she scolds me but all that comes out of her mouth is vulgarities.She and Elizabeth adore doing that in front of my friends.WTS!Elizabeth moved all her clothes into my SUPPOSEDLY-TO-BE-MY-ROOM and kept saying that room IS NOT GOING TO BE MINE.Oh,WTS.Crap.Shes already sleeping in the other room which she claims to be HER room,now shes taking MINE?!It's not fair...It's mine!So scoot over!

I suddenly have the emo feeling.I don't know myself much that's why I can't tell why am I being like this.Is it because of Mummie?Elizabeth?Wei Xuan?Kor Kor Lionel?Klinsmann?Am I being jealous?I don't know.I'm not sure.I just know I want someone to be here for me.Wipe the tears away.Sing me a song when I'm about to sleep.I want to touch the sky.Be the sky.Because the when I'm the sky,I can see you all the time no matter what...

So life's always like that for me.No one can keep the bad stuff away.They can't....


1)I feel really,really sick.Like I am gonna puke,again.It doesn't feel right....

2)So,school's always the same and every single day/The people I LOVE the most in GMSS: Mui Hwee,Min Qi,Nutan,Tan Qing,Hyeong Eun,Anton,Chanel,Mandy,Klinsmann,CAMERON ~FTW~,MINDEZ ~FTW~.The rest are just some people that don't talk to me,or just being some sarcastic person like someone in class.Or another giel who dumps her BFFS.

I almost died when Yiying didn't talk to me but we are back together again so yeah.Stupid people just don't know how to appreciate friends.

3)The people in school are just plain idiotic.But you.....I don't know what to say about you.I feel pretty much happy when you'r around and yes,you made a difference in my life...I lost the feeling.That super special feeling.

Some people aren't like you.They ignore my presence,talk crap about me etc.What shyttie.My life is better of without these kind of people!

4)LOVEEEEE LIONEL!!!!

Ended school at like,4PM.Kenny told me he just ended school when I left the school.It took him a freaking 1 hour to meet me.But the stupyd him don't even know where my school is.So I waited in the rain.Remebered someone said he would come back to school so that I could stand under his umbrella.Yeah,and I waited for a freaking long time.End up,I had to pick him up.And now my left shoulder hurts because HE took a long time and my bag is darn heavy!

By the time I reach Bugis,it was already 5PM+!The people who came:Yiying,Sandi,Claire,Kenny,Joel,Wei Xuan,Jannelle,All of us took 3 neo-prints together and later went to MCD to buy food.WHAT?I was hungry okay.Kenny laa,make me walk so much.Like i'm in a walking marathon (>_<) Zzz.Anyways,Min Qi gave me an ultra cute Bunnie called CARROTS and a notebook.Jannelle gave me a DIVA BANGLE.The one Claire wanted.Too bad.She doesn't have.

Enjoyed today.Wish,Kenny wouldn't lay his sweaty head on my shoulder!!!

Still,the people in school are idiotic!


I miss you......



If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors
Oh, and life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I've never known the loving of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing
Funny, when you're dead how people start listening

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time
So put on your best, boys
And I'll wear my pearls



I love this song.....Baby says it's too...ugh.But I like it and the cover Sam Tsui did.I almost cried...

Still waiting....4 more years and I can audition for WE.If only it was sooner.*MR NG,IF YOU SEE THIS BEFORE 29TH JAN '11,YOU BETTER BE THERE TO SEE TNS.I WANT TO SING ALSO CANNOT....*

Hmph.......I feel so emo,like all the time........If only I could end everything.Yeah right,end.ESTHER,Study hard and live your dreams.

I talk to myself okay.....everyday and I love it.I enjoy...talking and singing to myself.

[Afternoon-012411]

Jacelyn gave me a purple card filled with words:Esther Oh :P Your 13, a teenager.Esther Oh.....You rock!!!We've known each other for 5 years.TIME."
Cool? (:
Jacelyn goes to the same school as me since P1,but up till now,when I am in a new place,I don't trust anyone.And I don't want to.Because I just can't.It's not like last time...when I cried,they wiped my tears away,hugged me,said they love me.I can't trust Jacelyn either.No one.Ever.

I just know that I can't do this.I can't bring myself to say it.After what bro did to me,I told myself,no.Then Dominic,hes bad influence....Then came you....I don't know what to say.It's the feeling.The same feeling with Dominic.Only Bro could make it right.But,you....


HAPPY BIRTHDAY CASPER,JOHNATHAN AND RUEBEN!!!Today's your birthday!!!!

Yesterday,was MINE!!!And Samantha's.

[22nd Jan 11]

I woke up like...really,really late-11+AM.After I washed up and everything.Mum received a call from my Aunt in America.My Aunt passed the phone to Aaron and Brendan and they sand a birthday song for meeee!It was soooo adorable and cute-same meaning?Whatever,but I miss them badly!!!!I wantto go back to America!!!

But anyways,Sandi couldn't go to Bugis so instead,I went by myself to meet Samantha,Lydia and Wei Xuan who came much later.Took 197 to Bugis and I think I accidentally hit some VS guy.So hard la.Wonder what he eats?

It was already 2+PM by the time I reached and I was freaking hungry but Lydia and Samantha had lunch so I had to wait for Wei Xuan to come over.When Samantha met me,she asked if I permed my hair,I am like,NO.She said that Lydia thought I did when she saw the back of my hair.But still,NO!Yeah,we took neo-prints.Like all the time we do that together (:


When Wei Xuan reached,I was like totally,half dead because of hunger.Pasta Mania and Yoshinoya was all full so we went to Iluma to eat and decided to eat at Empire State which is similar to New York New York and after that,BERRY LITE.Wei Xuan ordered Paste and MEEEE,Steak-$22.80.The 1st 22,along the way...you will see,that I saw a lot of 22s.Lunch was soon over in about 45 minutes and I was soon eating my Peach Mango frozen yougurt topped with Aloe Vera,Nata de Coco and Lychee.So sweet! <3

Went back to Bugis to take the final neo-prints with Samantha,Wei Xuan and Lydia which Wei Xuan left after that.Lydia bought her sister's food,Samantha bought her strawberry ice-blend and it was soon time to go home because Samantha had a celebration which I was invited to!Waited with Lydia for her mum and after that,went to take the MRT to TIONG BARUH (The Pinnacle@Duxton).And in the MRT,I saw a cute CHS guy which I thought was the JC.

That's where Sam stays.22nd floor (2nd 22).Her mum picked the 22nd floor because it was Sam's Birthdate.(>_<) We left our bags at her house.She got changed into her TNS shorts and we took the cards and left for the 50th floor which I apparently,had pressure in my ears while going up!

So,the 50th floor it is.I know my dad wants to go sometime because it's kinda well known.So when he called while I was still up there cam-whoring,I told him I was at the Pinnacle with Sam and he said:"Oh,have fun,darling!I love you!" (: Took pictures till 7PM and went back to Sam's house where I used the laptop and login to Facebook.
1 FRIEND REQUEST,2 MESSAGES,22 NOTIFICATIONS (3rd 22).Her parents and Sam decided on Hard Rock Cafe at Orchard.Drove there and parked inside Forum Mall's Carpark which was all full and we had to wait a few minutes for some other car to come and while we were waiting,this other black car came and waited behind us but it took awhile and the car wanted to reverse and leave but he was stucked because there was another 3rd car so all of us were stuck but soon after this,some cars drove out and so we had space to park.

Walked to HARD ROCK CAFE and the waitress said there was going to be a 30-minute wait or shorter as it was FULL HOUSE.See,HARD ROCK CAFE is so good,everyone loves it including Klinsmann (: And Baby!!! So while waiting,we bought the cake from Secret Recipe which was a white chocolate cake.The messages on the surface was:Happy 13th Birthday Samantha and Esther!Walked back to HARD ROCK CAFE,again and visited the shop.And we kept going in and out.I was really anxious to celebrate my birthday there because I have never celebrated my birthday with a live band playing later in the night and in that kind of place which,Oops,sorry Klinsmann but like a PUB!Wut?It's NEON everywhere I turn.Yeah and after what feels like 1700000000 years,we finally got our seats but guess what,on the 2nd level.Because of that,Sam's mum was angry.Haha!We quickly ordered and flipped the menu to look for somthing tempting and settled on MAC AND CHEESE!Yummie!The ones my Mum buys is lousy.*Throws away!And one dish's price was $22 (4th 22) Marion ordered Fish n Chips,Sam's Dad-Steak and his wife-Linguine pasta.After a late,late dinner which we sat in at 9+PM and ended 45 minutes later,Sam and I decided to talk about stuff.....Normal stuff and schools,etc.Gah!The table beside us sang teir birthday song first and ours?A few minutes later.The table beside us sang the birthday songs for us too!So after making the wishes,blowing out the candles and cutting the cake,we ate the extremely sweet cake and was totally bloated.

Waiting for the band is like forever too but the band was really great.It started at about 2215PM.Song requests were made and Klinsmann suggested,"Whats my name,Crush and Hold my Hand" Sam and I requested HOLD MY HAND AND IMAGINE.I love imagine a lot just that,not the original one by John Lennon. :X Thinking about asking WE to sing IMAGINE!Haha,would be ultra cool.Still waiting for 4 more years before I can join WE.The band sang IM YOURS,WAKA WAKA,IT'S MY TIME,BAD ROMANCE,HAPPY BIRTHDAY-to Nadya and Jodie and not Sam and I ( When the lead singer asked whose birthday is it,Sam and I waved like mad from the 2nd floor but they never even see,sad luh as in,me) Jodie's boyfriend told the band that Jodie likes JB so they sang BABY for her and ONE IN A MILLION and DYNAMITE which I sang happily forgeting the lyrics.I remember McFly sang DYNAMITE too.Elizabeth texted me asking me to come home but I was still waiting for the song I requested to play but still she kept saying that my Mum wants me back before 12AM or I am not going out anymore.Oh!WHAT CRAP!Please,WHEN I CAME HOME AT 2349PM,she never even say anything.But in the end,we left HARD ROCK CAFE at 1120+PM and yeah.Oh yeah,the HARD ROCK CAFE people took poloride pics and the both of us got one.Mines with the both of us which I slightly look weird and Sam got the one with me and her family.

MEEEE WENT HOME SATISFIED!

I think this year's birthday is the most memorable one.Thanks Klinsmann for accompanying me in my sad and unjoyous life and SAM for being my BFF! (: Hope Tuesday would be a better celebration from my other friends and oh,THANKS LIONEL!!!GAH,can't wait to play Basketball with you.Bro too."Wear your house shirt and play with me!" Yeah,sure. THANKS GUYS!!!!I LOVE YOU!!!


I cried.I celebrated-my 13th birthday.Not exactly 13th.Its tomorrow.Tomorrow,I turn 13.My last day as a 12-year-old.

After last period,I sat the car and rode towards HOME SWEET HOME.Had tuition,got dressed in the dress I wore for my last performance and took the bus with Yiying.Met Harriet and Sandi.

Swensens,was where I used to celebrate my birthday when I was younger.Mum decided the place today.I don't mind.It's nice.And sweet.We ate,talked,laughed like mad.After dinner,walked around,shopped for Yiying's RED SHIRT...Met Zekkie.

I told Mum a few nights ago,I wanted to change my glasses.And so,we went to change.It tool like forever to pick the right glasses and finally settled on a red framed glasses.My degree increased a lot.Andy said:"Study hard". Of course I would,I just want it to decrease.Everyone knows how much I adore my red frameless glasses which I'm currently wearing,so,I asked my mum to change it's lenses too.It cost a lot,for a night!

I came home,with no emotion,just my "old self".And I went to the kitchen where Mum was.I asked her if I wasted her money today,with my voice quavering.I started crying.I regretted asking for new glasses when I don't want to go to school without my current glasses.Mum said it was okay.But to me,inside,I don't think it's okay.It's never okay,for me,with everything.But,I feel better....much better,now.For now,only.

Tomorrow's my birthday.I don't want to turn 13.I love 12 too much.And 12 means a lot to me,I spend my last days as a 12-year-old with my best friends and Tao Nan.It meant a lot.And when I grow up,I hope to help Tao Nan to become a better and awesomeee place to study.

Hope tomorrow would be a better and brighter day.I Love You,God.Thank you.Amen.


I am falling apart.It's unpredictable.

Yesterday,I cried in the toilet.I thought about how people always stare at me like I provoked them or something.It's so hard to adjust to a new school,new environment,new bunch of people and every single day,people would ask me if I am okay because I show no emotion.I don't want to show any emotion,I don't want them to know I am sad or whatever.And now,the problem lies with myself.

First things first,I don't trust anyone in the school.So I pretty much keep everything to myself.I hardly open up when it comes to camping with people I don;t know.

Secondly,every time I go to school,it's like I don't belong there.Like I just came to spoil the fun and all those stuffs.

No one understands what I am going through.I already ignored the fact that we.are.apart.And that I will not probably get the chance to see ____ again but now,this?Seriously,can it get any worse?Every time I pray.Friends pray.Nothing happens.I am not blaming God.Of course not.It's just that people don't understad.

I told Bro about it.He said,"Cheer up la!You were always so cheerful!And don't care about other people who stare at you>
Truth is,he got bullied.Not theat I got bullied but it's like the people hate me.Bro told me that he didn't want to fight back knowing what the consequences would be but even if he didn't,how long is he gonna hide.Or rather,how long am I gonna keep up with all these?For how long must I bear with it?

A few years back,I dreamt about a car accident.What I heard,or researched about shows that I could get hurt if I dont stop or slow down.But stop what?Slow down for?I live in fear and anxiety thinking of what others might think of me.I am sure,the people there hate me.Not only in school,at home too.Can't figure out why my life works this way....

So,yes.It's true.My life IS falling apart and it's definitely unpredictable.

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Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Today was soooo cool!I went back to TNS!!!Yippie!First things first,when Mui Hwee and I got there,we registered and met Ms Ng while going to the General Office.We were supposed to go there to inform them or something but we didn't care.So bad.But yeahs,we met Ms Ng and we asked about the CCAs and Supp classes.All of them begin after Chinese New Year but when we went upstairs and looked for Miss Teo,and we talked about GMSS and upcoming things and the new things that are coming or already happening.She told me that I could come to the CCA open house on the last Saturday of the month.YAY!!!So I can meet all my Juniors.After seeing Miss Teo,I saw Chen Lao Shi.Gah...miss them!Oh,of course I talked to Chen Lao Shi too.After this,Mui Hwee and I went downstairs to look for Mr Chua because that was why Mui Hwee wanted to come but she ended up not knocking on the door.Nevermind.Since we missed the food,we went to the canteen and met the NETBALL JRS and Dr Chin.We asked Dr Chin if we could buy food and he said yes only to us 2 students because if there were 20 of us,the he would say no because the vendors only prepared sufficient food for the students and teachers.And the GIRL were like sooooo friendly and I thought they hated me because I quit but yeahs.Ordered Wanton Noodles,Milo and Green Tea.I only drank the MILO in school and brought the GREEN TEA home.After MEEEE AWEOMEEEE late,late LUNCH,we went back to the staff room or HOD rooom to look for Mr Chua and again,Mui Hwee don't dare to knock on the door (>_<) But somehow,in the end,he came out.I apparently tried to hide myself because he once scolded me but I still talked to him.Ohhhh,what the shyt.

TNS CCA OPEN HOUSE-29TH JANUARY (SATURDAY) I will be singing!Most likely and registering the younger ones!Yay!Catch me there?!

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Friday, January 7, 2011

07-01-11

"GEMS,GIVE ME A WHOOSAY!GIVE ME A WHOOSAA!GIVE ME AN OOLALA!"

Today marks the last day of Camp At GMSS.Camp lasted for 3 days starting from 5th of January to 7th of January.It was totally awesomeee.

The Coaches:Jomin,Rachael and Nicholas.Currently finding Nicholas on Facebook but somehow I can't find him.Hmph.I managed to find the rest.They are like super awesomeee.They are like better than OBS's Kiah Hong but of course Ruth and Aaron more awesomeee.What am I talking about.Everyones' awesomeee right?!

Day 1

Woke up at 5.55AM.Got dressed and everything.Went down to wait for Jacelyn to come fetch me.Arrived....assembled....sang the National Anthem....say the pledge....hear the teachers brief us about each levels' camps and did some prayers.We then went to Wesley Hall to meet out coaches,briefing,etc.After this,we went downstairs to do ice-breakers which was like horrible.Gabriel made fun of us saying the girls are stupid and lousy.Not true at all!Anyways,after we finished the ice-breakers,we went to the indoor sports hall to play the noodle stick game.(Can't remember what it's called)and then talked about how it benefited us.All the games have meanings behind them so we must always know and understand the meanings and apply them to our everyday life.

Lunch!!!!We had chicken,rice and veggie!(Continued)After lunch,we went to change into our shorts and shirts and played games???I can't remember,it was a 3 days ago thing.But anyways,we played games and did some talking and etc.One of the games was having 5 people to walk togethter while communicating but the upper secondary student upstairs were like staring at us which made it embarrassing and one of them had a phone which I think was hopefully not in video mode.Since my class and some other classes are called MAJOR BRILLIANT (Major B) while the others are called MAJOR AWESOME (Major A).So MAJOR AWESOME got the privillage to bathe first while MAJOR B went to eat.Then we swopped and clearly and obviously,girls can't bathe as fast as boys.The coaches stepped in and banged on the door asking the girls to bathe faster.Casa said that we can actually wrap our selfs in towels and change the toilet cubicles so it would save everyone time which that was what I did because what we have,they have so why not sacrifice some bathing time for others.After bathing,we went back to the classroom to put our bathing stuff down and waited till the coaches fetched us.We went back to the hall for a game and listen to the briefings for the next day and what is expected out of us.

Sleep Time!!!!When it comes to sleeping in the same room with the same sez,everyones knows that we can't stop talking but clearly i wanted to sleep but some of the girls kept talking and from talking and whispering,it became into laughther and shushing.I was sleeping directly underneath the fan so it was so cold that i had to wear my checkered button down and zipped the sleeping bag.Yes,there are complains.The floor is hard and cold,the crickets kept making so much noise and the MRT trains kept zooming by so obviously,I can't sleep.

Day 2

But when it was morning,my friend kicked me so hard that I woke up after sleeping ever so soundly.But yeah,I woke up and changed into fresh new clothes and freshen up.Went back to the classroom and heard the so-caller siren so some of us went outside including me but the coaches and trainers asked us to go back inside and wait for our coaches to come.We were so tired,especially me.My eyes were like closing and always looking at the floor.When it came to breakfast which was fried beehoon and I wasted it.I wasn't hungry and I felt like crying when I tell someone that I am sick.And I did tell Jomin I couldn't finish because I was sick too.Breakfast was over so there were games again and prayers for the food and etc.The 3 major events that took place was the Touch and Go game,Post-It challenge (If that's what you call it) and the campfire performance.

So back to after breakfast,we were in the classroom playing Touch and Go where half of the class stay outside to use story cards to form a story without showing each other the card (Everyone has one each) while the other half would stay in the classroom putting their hands on the wall so if anyone moves in the classroom,the people outside has to restart the game with different cards each.I was like to sick to play the game so I asked Ms Quek if I could sit out and I started crying because it was so pain...Gah.

So I sat on the chair and stare at the others who are happily getting ready to play.Nicholas came by and asked if I wanted some hot water and I said okay so he went to get the water while Ms Quek talked to me and ask if I wanted to go home or anything.Even Mui Hwee asked if I wanted to go home but I didn't want to miss the campfire so I said that if the pain gets worse,I'll go home home when my mum comes to school for the campfire.Jomin asked if I wanted to stay at the girls bunk,I shooked my head.She asked if I wanted to go home,I said I can't because no on ecan fetch me since mum and dad arre bust and Elizabeth's at school so I just stayed there.She offered to give me a warm towel but nah,I don't use it and she said that if I needed anything,I could ask her.Nicholas returned with his Nike bottle filled with hot/warm water and passed it to me.I drank and felt like 10 times way better than before.He came back again and said that if I was feeling much better,I could go outside to help then he streched out his hand and gestured:"I mean like if still "pain" right than it's okay.I just nod.

Jomin took away the girls' water bottles and they asked if I can pass them back their bottles so I did that while Jomin was looking away and she came back saying:"Wah,so fast ah?" Min Qi was like:"She pass to us one."I just gave a broken smile. :/ When the people outside swopped places with those inside,Yen Shuen asked if I was okay.I don't like her because she stares at me like I am some kind of weird person.She stares at Mui Hwee too but she talked to me and I replied with a soft:"Yeah." I went to the washroom for fun and when I came back,Hwee Shan was sitting on my seat and I am like okays,nevermind,goes back out and find Mui Hwee and Min Qi walking upstairs.They asked if I was feeling better and the answer is yeah but it's just a little bit pain.It's kinda an on-off thing.

After the game,and after I came back and capped back Nicholas's bottle and handed it over when we went to the hall.I asked if he wanted me to throw away the water inside because it's mine but he said it's alright so I passed it back only to know that when I sat down and he was in front,he drank the water.I think he mistook and forgotten that I drank that but from differnt bottle areas.He drank from the nozzle (Whatever you call it) and I drank from the rim of the bottle.

Not the point,back to subject.We had to come up with a performance for the campfire and then it started drizzling and soon when we were downstairs for lunch,it was raining heavily.Still,we did our makan cheers and prayed for the food and we ate.I didn't eat.I was really not hungry.I just want to sleep,again.Nicholas asked if I wanted anything,I said no....Lunch was over and we are in the indoor sports hall to breif for the 2nd game which was the Post-It challenge.At this point of time,I was feeling much better.So I did the Post-It challenge that required us to go to different places to find clues that leads to another place in school.The last one was so difficult.We had to do jumping jacks and push ups to get clues to know the answer.Gabriel did a good job on helping us with tat but we don't know how to explain how we got the answers especially for the last LETTER so we had to do some stuff to earn a clue.Some of the 4 places that we had to travel to required us to do some torturing stuffs like success claps which was 95 sets,push ups,jumping jack and boppies?I don't know what you call the last one.After the last place,we went back to the indoor sports hall and got 2nd place.After I can't remember who told us what positions we are,we split back into our classes and discussed what we want to do for the campfire performance.I won't say the front part of the performance was retarded but I would say it sounds annoying to the ears.And the girls act so bitchy and bossy (>_<) Hmph,one of them actually ditched her best friend for a new friend.Like,what the shyt!What kind of friend is that?I still keep in touch with Yiying wut.Ridiculous.Just suck up to teachers man.Anyways,we learned the annoying song and then went upstairs to bathe at 5.10PM and got changed into our camp shirts and TNS SHORTS!!!!Ahhh,TNS!

Yep,so after dressing,we had dinner.Again,I didn't eat.Nicholas asked if I wanted biscuits.Answer:*Shakes head.He asks again after one of the coaches finished talking."Ummm,I want hot water." He took my bottle and went off.Suddenly,I became hyper-active because the pain was gone again.So I told my friends that I felt bad for asking to get hot water. (>_<) Nicholas came back with my empty bottle which actually had water and Jomin passed me the hot water in a styrofoam cup and I said thank you.Dinner was spagetthi and jelly.It smelled great but I really didn't want to eat so I ended up going back to the hall and listen to some briefings and also went downstairs to get the benches because from the heavy rain,it became drizzles but we went downstairs to see if the weather is okay.

Went to the toilet.The gross thing is that the girls main door for the toilet couln't close fully and because of that,Nicholas or I don't know,some guy coach was like:"Eh,close the door." And Tan Qing went to close it.Im like who's that?Haha.Toilet break over,so we went back down and the drizzles came a little heavier so we went upstairs o the hall instead for the campfire but with no fire.*Sigh,my one chance to see a real campfire is dashed (>_<)

But we did have some fun even though Mui Hwee begged me to not go home,I kept telling her it was still pain so after the performance and everything (Last class to perform was my class),we sat down or in other words I sat down and the pain came back and it was really really pain and worse than before that I was pulling my hair while Mui Hwee asked if I was okay.We were granted permission to see our parents so I went out to mum and put my arm around her and said that my stomach hurt and tears start rolling down my cheeks.Yes,it was embarrassing because people were staring and probably wondering why is this girl crying.But I ended up going home.Rachael brought us mum and I to the class room to take back my bags and stuff and forgot to take my camp booklet (>_<) But I asked mum to send me back to school the next morning because I had to give them the letter which at that time,wasn't written.So we waited for a cab which took like a million years to come and ended up dialling for one.But the usual route home was like jammed so we took the Mountbatten route.I told mum that I didn't eat anything fo rlunch and dinner and hardly touched my breakfast.She got shocked.What's so shocking about it?BY the time I came home,it was already over 9.45PM.

I dumped my bag on the floor and took a towel and bathe.I wanted to get this over and done with.Mum made milo and gave me awesomeee biscuits.After eating,I wrote the LETTER to the coaches which I always do for almost every camp.*Sleeps.

Day 3

Took 2 buses to GMSS and went back to the hall where all the Sec 1s were.Nicholas was like:"Oh,you're back *Smiles." Me:"Yeah." Nicholas:"Feeling much better?" Me:"Yeah *Nods head." So I dropped my stuff at the side of the hall and went to sit with my class.We heard a story which was kinda funny but it doesn't make sense but we learned stuff.Story ended.Teachings.We had to write letters to people for their help and we have to appreciate them etc.I wrote to Mui Hwee.

Graduation Ceremony.We were grauduating from camp which was cool.They gave us water bottles and the scarf which was tied around our wrists by our teachers and presented the bottled by the coach-Nicholas,and after receiving this 2 things,we had to say:"I AM AWESOME!" I was one of the last few to receive the 2 things and ended up saying:"YOU GUYS ARE AWESOMEEE!" Nicholas shouted back with my back facing him but I heard:"YOU ARE AWESOME TOO!" Haha,I know it's true.Everyones awesome mann!

Now that camp is over,I am starting to miss it and the coaches and not my friends.I dread it.I hope to trasnfer or go to America to study.Singapore's education system is horrible but I hope to fit in!

Camp made me a stronger person so thanks you!

Now,dinner.SEAFOOD!!!Yum!SQUID!!!!HERE I COME!!!Byeeee

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