Emo these days....Why must this happen to me?[FLASHBACK]

1)Yiying doesnt want to accept my apology.

I lied to her.Well,not only me,but Wei Xuan,Jannelle and Jolene.Jolene came up with the lie while the rest including me used the lie,to lie to Yiying and her group that we are not going to go ice-skating with them due to lack of awareness etc.

The day of the ice-skating came and that morning when I woke up,I laid in bed and thought to myself:Maybe,we should bail going swimming at Wild Wild Wet and go ice skating instead.But it was already too late.As soon as I got up to wash my face and make the bed,Wei Xuan was already on the way...As in,she and Jannelle brought all the swimming stuffs and now,I decided I want to BAIL?!That's rude,isn't it.So,after much thinking,I decided to go.But I left the house with guilt.I really wanted to join them bt it was too late to back out.

We took bus 13 but overshot our destination but the bus driver said we can still alight at Geylang and walk to Kallang station and take a MRT to Pasir Ris which is a 10 minute walk from the Pasir Ris station to Wild Wild Wet.

We had so much fun together.But when we went up the HUGE SLIDE WITH THE HUGE TUBE and slide down the 1st time,and when we came out of the tube,the lifeguard kept spinning the tube till it made us giddy.The 2nd time we went,we met Sandy and Kyna from 6B at the entrance of the slide.So we decided to slide together.Apparently,some how,I fell out of the tube while trying to get out of it and hurt my knee-it was so pain and blood oozed out of the wound.The lifeguard asked if I was okay,I said yes.

We slide and slide till we got sick of it so we went to try other slides-the one which is in the V shape.When we went,I am like woah...this is scary!When I came out of the two-seater tube,my legs went jittery and this life guard was so cool!And handsome>OMG!Haha!Like,since when I asked?!

WE played and played till 4+?And after that,left to bathe and LEFT MY GREY shirt drying on the pole and I think it's at the lost and found right now-this very second.But...still,MY SHIRT!After bating,my group took a late lunch at Mc Donald's which is a cheese burger.We also bought out pictures before leaving.

That night,Elwin I-M me asking if I went to Wild Wild Wet wearing a grey shirt and I said yes.Asked how he knew and if he went he said he guessed but didn't go.But how can it be so coincidental?



Joel called before we left the place.He said Michel,Karyn,Marc,Claire,Yiying and himself went.I hanged after saying bye and texted Yiying:Sorry,I lied to you....etc

She ignored.On that very day or the following day in the car,I told Joel the matter and he said he would help me talk her round.She replied saying it was alright but she said I would not even say the truth if Joel didn't mention Michel.What does this whole matter got to do with Michel anyway?I don't understand.When I asked,she again,ignored me..including Wei Xuan.

All of us decided to apologize to the whole bunch of them...okay,maybe not all but we decided to say sorry to Yiying,Claire and Karyn on the day all P6 classes went to the beach to pick up the rubbish.But when we went to assemble at the study area,I said sorry to Claire 1st and she accepted my apology saying its okay.2nd,I apologized to Yiying and Karyn at the same time but only Karyn say nevermind-Yiying looked the other way like she is pretending to not hear me.

Through other people who risked their friendship because of me managed to obtain some info from her.She keep saying that I don't talk to her when I acctually I-M her just that SHE NEVER answer me back.And now,she says that I don't talk to her.Like,give me a break.Who are you trying to kid?!Its like she is telling Claire,Jacelyn and Elwin 2 different stories.

Look,she told Claire and Jacelyn that I was the one who didn't want to talk but told elwin that she was scared of me!!!!I AM the one who is scared of her and her class-GIRLS.She's changing like enjoying being popular with the girls and guys in her class.She ditched her old friends for new ones,settled on POPULARITY,ditched us for POPULARITY.POPULARITY can kill you.She was once the quiet girl and did all her homework but now during tuitions,Jacelyn said their teacher (they have the same teacher) told her Yiying had been wild during tuition lessons etc.She really changed.I was told by Claire that she was being influenced by some people and now Claire is trying to stay away and ignore them because of their prideness.

Tommorrow's Yiying party.She invited me on reluctance.Jacelyn asked if she was inviting me to her party but she said:AM I SUPPOSED TO,OR NOT?

What is that supposed to mean?If you don't want to invite me,it's fine.But still,I was given an invitation.I decided not to go as I am very sure almost everyone going is going to hate me and her family and obviously,I am going to be an emo freak and going to keep quiet during the whole party so why bother to go and when she don't even talk to me.She said I blamed her.Well,I didn't but I know where this was coming from.She thinks i am blaming her but I am acctually confused as to why ahe is ignoring me and not the others.I explained that it was not all my fault that I lied...I would not even say I was forced to.How is that considered blame?!

Elwin asked me to go to her party but.....I don;t want to talk about it anymore.


When Yiying invited me to Bugis even though we kinda...seperated,Wei Xuan tried to get us back together becaus eshe believed that we CAN get back together so she took my hand and her hand but I guessed what she wanted to do and slipped my hand off.I wasn't in the mood for apologizing and stuff because I wasn't feeling well and was tired.Yiying won't even hear me out.She said that in front of her and her group,I wasn't happy but with mine,I am happy.Yeah,it is true.Because you are acting THAT way.


2)Today,I saw someone I really hate at the basketball court.

She taled to Wei Xuan and pretended that I wasn't even there.We (Wei Xuan and I) were there at the basketball court to play with Kor but suddenly the ball was confiscated or something.Then,Karyn and her friends strolled over to talk to Wei Xuan.I mean like evne if you didn't want to talk to me,yoiu shouldn't have talked bad about me behind my back and said things that wern't true.Get your facts right!She said that I was the one who wasn't willing to apologize when CLEARLY I DID!She said this probably before Wei Xuan took my hand.

Back at school...after I went to the basketball court,my vision suddenly started to turn glassy.Maybe because of the heat.Maybe because SHE was talking to Wei Xuan.Maybe because I couldn't play basketball with Kor and his gang.I suddenly turned my back on Wei Xuan and went back to Foyer A.My cheeks were burning
and suddenly,tears started to pour out.I could tell my cheeks were flushed pink.Claire came over to comfort me saying:Its okay Esther.You have to be strong etc.I trust her and told her it was because if them.CLaire:Nevermind.You still have me.You still have US.I love you!WE all love you so don't cry.They don't even care about others' feelings etc.

Justin,Nicholas,Wei Xuan,Jolene,Joel,Eric,Joshua were all there to comfort me.It was really nice of them.I love them too.They always made sure I was okay after I cry/crying and made sure I laughed and double checked on how was my progress.

3)Yesterday and today,I cried.

All because of Graduation Day and Wei Xuan leaving tommorrow.I don't want to leave school and Wei Xuan won't be here till she comes back next week on Saturday.The whole class and I were so sad that she had to leave a week earlier than us.But we took pictures and stuffs.Played games etc.Love ya!


Don't you get it?You are changing and you don't even know that you are slowly losing friends.

I didn't mean to hurt you at all.

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