I am such an idiot.I cried just because I am about to waste my two BEAST Hi-5 session tickets worth $110.Why everyone must be so busy during that timing?God probably wants me to not go for the session.I don;t blame him.I blame mysef instead.BABO!"Why not go by yourself?"That stupid voice and what everyone else is saying...I wouldn't dare go by myself.Probably suffering from a disorder like the person in the teenage magazine.I can't believe that I am going to waste the money I saved by not going to see them.I wouldn't want to go with ELizabeth.Afraid that she would scold me for saying a lie,scold me for wasting money and not going,scold me for embarrassing her-that sort of things,freak me out.Everytime I see someone I like,I would most likely scream,and everyone turns around to look at us she will probably jab me in the arm.THAT SUCKS!!!I hate my life!I'd wish I wasn't born into this family-having such awful family members and a vain/act cool sister.I want to have a brother!I don't care if he is was adopted or what,I just want one!I hate myself!!!!!I cry at little things for no reason,my face has so many pimples and my hair is bad......................ITS HORRIBLE!Alright?!I want all these to end!!!